Was God visiting me?

"Lord, have mercy on me, please...have mercy..." "I know I've done terrible sins but spare me Lord, spare me..." These are my groaning  after being awakened by a very intimidating presence around 2:00 o'clock a.m. last Tuesday. It was repeated for I think three times during that night. The feeling is so hard to explain. This is now I think the third time that I am being awakened in the middle of the night, and feel that strange but very real feeling of great fright that sinks deeper to my bones to my soul and spirit. I literally trembled. It was like the glory of the Lord was all over the room. Above, behind, below, my sides and in front of me that there's no way and there's no place I can hide. It's making me shrink. There's nothing I can do but lay prostrate and groan. 

I do not know how many other people out there are having the same experience, but I can relate to the records of people in the Bible who went through the same, whose lives God changed and committed themselves to a most daring task of doing God's plan. We can hear of Samuel, of Gideon,  Isaiah and many more. I cannot express details of sights as what those men have seen. I cannot describe things like seeing a blazing throne with angels crying Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts, but one thing I can be sure of, the glory of the Lord was encircling me...apprehending me, during this wee hours of the night. 

I can attest to the life changing effect of such an encounter, for the moment I woke up in the morning, I was reassured that I am indeed His child, and His servant, being loved unconditionally and been forgiven from all sins and was called for His purpose, that no matter how many times I have failed, He did not and would not use them to accuse me, and still want to use me for his glory.

Lord, I know it was a visit. And though I am such a worm, you did not consumed me. Your mercy preserved me. And I want to thank you for allowing me to get even that close, so close to Your glory and still live.